Whatever you want.

morning2 went out of hse early.
fetch cake.
other keep msg2 me ask where to put the stuffs.
panic sehh..
den i oso lazy to reply. haha.
blah3

our school also had CCA ROD and CCA awards.
plus EXCEL investiture.
im involved in the cca rod n cca awards.
seram seh..
walk on the green carpet..
i dunno y i cant calm down.
i was damn scared.
i oso dunno why. breathe in breathe out to calm myself dwn
still cant.

i tink tat day i was damn stress i guess.
cos many things run thru my mind.

CCA ROD!

handling over my position to JOEY!

haha my responsibility is all over!
everyone was watching the ceremony.

im wearing tat stupid FBT shorts.

DARNN..
after tat ceremony is over,

i thought i will be like normal.

but still cant.

still pressurise.ape kene tah.
breathe in n out many2 times oso cant.

den take the award went up alone.

i mean im the only girl.
sedih seh..

ppl shouting wen i went up..

bleh dgr ar seh.. KUAT sehh.

paiseh seh. he paiseh, i more paiseh. haha.
left, right boys.

i wan tok to them pon mcm malu.

den i jus keep quiet ah.

never mind la unique pe srg pompuan.haha :p

Followed by Teachers day celebration..
huhu..nice :)

after tat followed by party.

4e2 were all in the design studio.

i went to call mdm wai. n fathin call mdm hamidah.

light offs ppl!haha

SURPRISE!!

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!

all shouted.cut the cake..

eat2. guys tak sabar nk mkn

mkn tau, den after tat cabut. haha nvm

followed by a speech by ME!

HAHA part nk bace cork up.

hancur. haha den si malik sengaje.

"fahmi, clap2"

nonsense arh. haha

pass all teachers card, cookies n muffins.

some teacher nt there.

lost some cards.. sway..

here are some pics. the rest at friendster.

today went for remedial at 8

whole day sat wif sat bf. haha:p

phy suppose start at 8 but ppl come at 9.

mrs chiam angry sehhh.

while i was writing on the board, i turn

n saw this big guy smiling at me.

nonsense seh..

kk watever.

went for maths mock exam.

received 4 other sch paper to do!
dead!

had pizza. wow! like everyday eat pizza.

wohhoo. thnks mrs M n ms Ang.

after that went for art.

tired seh.

best friend went tuition so nvr go remedial.bored sehh

went home at 2.45pm

raining oi!!!

wanted to ask bestfriend fetch me haha

tapi he at outside. haha special sangt ke? nk org fetch?hahaha

send friends to bustop.

dad called. wan fetch me.

i say okay lor..

den went jln2. wear school attire lagi. haha

went to eat! went window shopping n buy groceries.

parents buy paint! at last for the first time!!

we gonna paint the house! wehhhoo.. :)

i forget my old friend birthdae.

i had always remember but ntah suddenly forget seh..

tk sangke. seriously sorrie.

aniwae i didnt fight wif u.

u can still say hi or tok to me. but nt more than tat.

i mean i dun wan anything like before. so ya..

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Monday, August 25, 2008

Title :
Time : 9:41:00 PM

today school was fun.
tisha was absent. ape da..
i wanted to tell her something.
but nvm.

chemistry was free period.
been called up.
planning for teachers day.
stress.

at canteen,
i was sitting den suddenly saw this tall guy
terkejut sak..
i thought tat ..........
serious i was very shocked!!
arghh y cant i forget tat incident?

den during poa mdm wai ask some qns.
haah funny la..
i gt no mood to do..
i cant concentrate..
both besties were nt there. satu tk dtg,
satu alik.
ape da.. its okay..

but still had fun with my bodyguards haha
my girlfriends i mean..

they make me laugh especially part nk alik.
they walk soo slow..
i was late fetching my bro..

gara2 my girlfriends. haha
joking ler.
things are nw settled..

revision time!

haha at last i get to noe!

weehoo..

gonna give u a surprise soon..

i hope its gonna work, n no changing of mind!

take care girlfriends n guyfriends n of cos bestfriends.

tisha come to school tmr ler!!!

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Sunday, August 24, 2008

Title :
Time : 2:36:00 PM

today,
i cant wake up ah seh..
my neck, oh gosh wat can i say?
i cant twist my head ard properly cos
due to tat incident,
my neck hit the side of the table.

dad get to noe abt tat incident,
he asked me lots of qns.
now both my dad n mum are away to JB.

ytd night i was smiling happily eventhough
my neck hurts.
haha
im glad to have wonderful, best, good girlfriends
n guyfriends ah sehh..

cant tell u wat makes me sooo happy.
secret between me n the wonderful friend i had. :)

religious class was fun.
the teacher keep telling abt teachers day present.
i dun like tat.
cos to me she doesnt seemed to be "ikhlas"
in teaching us..
me n Shifah plan to give her prata for their breakfast.
haha

hey,

u really brighten up my day ah seyhh.

telling me how much i meant to u..

haha,

eventhough i was nt suppose to ask u qns

that u had asked.

but kene fair kan.

haha..

nw i noe how much i mean to u..

aniwae its just between me n u..

no one else ye.

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

Title :
Time : 4:56:00 PM

im TRAUMATISE!

what have i done to u, tat makes u did tat to me?
i just merely raised my voice.

is tat money so important to u?
tat u even harm me??
why are u soo hot blooded?
hot tempered.?
if nobody stop u, i tink u had killed me rite?

i cant say anything.
wen i tink back abt the incident,
im scared to face u.
im scared to tok to u.
im scared to be ur friend.
im scared.

i still have this phobia facing u.
even in class, i cant faced u.

thnks mrs chiam n especially mdm wai
for protecting me.

girlfriends,
thnks a lot for protecting me
but truthfully,
even nw im still crying.
the injury hurts a lot.
n the incident keeps running thru my head.
i cant jus forget abt it.
PHOBIA.
i cant bear to let him getting suspension,
but deep inside i wan him out of my world.
haish.. i cant tink.
hurt?
traumatised?
hatred?
pity?
phobia?

everything seems so wrong!
arghhh.

to my bestfriend, md fahmi,
thnks a lot for talking things out wif him.
thnks for solving my problems.
u shldnt been involved.
but i appreciated it a lot.
but,
its nt easy to forgive him like tat.
ure nt in my shoes,
so u wont understand.
i was the one hu bear all the pains.
oh gosh, why eh?
however, thanks eh fahmi for settling tis.
thnks for ur care n concern.

Guyfriends,

thanks for ur help, care n concern.

appreciated it alot.

but plss.

dun ever tell me to act normally in front

of him or whatsoever.

cos i cant

im trying but pls dun force.

its nt easy.

pls understand me.

im wrong to raise my voice.

but come to tink of it,

wen u are irritated n angry,

u will raised ur voice.

n jus becos i merely raised my voice,

this happen?

he also did raise his voice but i didnt

do anything.

just merely argued back.

i noe u ppl are angry of wat he did to me.

i understand tat u guys care bout me.

i appreciate it alot.

but hes still ur classmate.

just treat him normally, if nt he has no friends.

but pls class, dun damn him or take revenge or wack him.

dun get involved in my problems.

i settled it my own with the mr A.

dun do stupid things ya.

thanks a lot 4e2.

syg korang haha..
y cant i forget abt the incident just
by the snap of my fingers?

kawanku,
setelah ini,
aku harap kau insaf.
..................................

TRAUMATISE

A BIG THANKS TO:

Athishah (bestest girlfriend-thnks for being my listening ear.)

Fathin (braces girl-everything happens theres goes ur HIKMAH!)

Syazlin (hiphop girl-heaven sent friend, ur counselling was thumbs-up!)

Fahmi (special bestest friend- ur care n help, ur words cheered me up!)

Sathish (saturday BF-thnks for stopping tat jerk.)

Aqira (long-lost-friend- didnt expect u to help me, but thnks a lot beb.)

Eka (god brother-thnks for accompanying me to MR A! )

Malik (bestfriend-thnks for standing up for me)

Syidin (goodfriend-thnks for talking things out wif him, didnt expect it.)

to this ppl,

thnks a lot ya..

dunno how to thank u ppl.

trust me i help u wen u ppl are in need.

alone at home, fear.

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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Title :
Time : 7:59:00 PM

TODAY had oral.
GCE O level English Oral 2008!
haha i was the 2nd last.
n of coz the last was FATHIN.
hehe kecian.

during oral we planned for teachers day.
haha.
sejuk seyhh.. i drank one bottle of water!
haha den i needed the toilet damn badly.
den ms eng accompanied me to the toilet.
like im the thief, shes the police sehh..

i was like confidence.
ntah ah why.
i can really do the conversation.
haha all the way i talk crap, which we were suppose to
talk crap n bullshit.
i was talking n smiling.
haha giler i guess.
the invigilator oso smile at me.

weehhoo.. hope i pass ah. n a very good luck
to the rest hu are taking oral tmr :)

today school was okay.
art coursework dateline is going to be
POSTPONED!

going to have remedial every saturday.
DEAD!

wah ah achievement for mohd raihan.
haha he manage to make a sampan by himself.
haha

after oral wen home.
haha so cute la tat 2 year old boy.
my bestfriend cousin
name danial.
haha..
fetch danial den wen send the kid to
his house.
ure right ah wen hes at his area den he will like
very hyper.
haha
cute boy.:)

now doing homeworks.arvin I WAN MY BIRTHDAY CAKE!!

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Sunday, August 17, 2008

Title :
Time : 8:02:00 PM

updated the photos during last friday.
we had fun doing art.
n fathin ketupat.

so theres Ain hu went to climb over sth.
i dunno wat is it called.
i captured her jumping.: )

first she point to me
den began to jump.
muke mcm nk terlepas.
hahah

syaz n Sze qin

still not been toking to her. i cant ah. i want to prove to her den mayb after tat den tok mayb it takes a month.no idea.
shes nw toking to me. i only answer her qns by nodding my head. up to her la.

i better shut my mouth. i had enough of it.

y cant u tell me the truth? u hid it from me n didnt even give me a clue.
how am i suppose to find out? kasi la clue.. hahahas wat if i didnt noe from tisha u will be left hurt.
clue please.tell me a clue pls.

it will make me happy to hear it :)

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Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Title :
Time : 8:21:00 PM

had a quarrel.
y must u always compare me wif them??
im tired of listening to wat u said.
penat ar kene lecture.
ytd u lecture me for almost an hour.
its enough arh.cukup..
but u still continue,critising me over n over again.
i hate it!!

i noe,i always dun meet ur expectations.
but hw can i?
u always wanted me b like them.
i dunwan.
u keep critisizing me whichh make me arggghhh

i noe they are better than me.
let me tell you,
i am me,
i dunwan b like them.
dun compare me wif them.

i had enough of everything!!!
i just feel tat its better i runaway!!
im tired of breaking down.
stop it,seriously stop it.
just let me be..
leave me n dun bother abt me as im jus a dumb person to u.

wat a person u are.u cant accept me like others do.
why??

thnks
tisha for comforting me.

you noe me best.

watever happens, i runaway from home,

you noe where to find me:)

running
away.

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Saturday, August 9, 2008

Title :
Time : 8:34:00 PM

Today its 09 August 2008!
happie 43th birthday Singapore!!
hahas k tat was nonsense.

Went to school at 7.15am.
i was nt late.
reach the hardcourt, saw fathin, syaz n ain.
went to them n biase luhh they will questioned me soooooooooo
ssoooooo many many QUESTIONS!!

hahas. its a normal thing coz i always get disturb.:)
den they look ard n saw FARM.1
So dIE.
farm pon kene kacau. haha
kecian. NO NO,
I shld say padan muke.

kk watever.
we assemble, n start wif the parade.
the peformance really not to my expectations.
haha boring jek.
but its okay we did have fun taking pictures :D

here are some pictures.

the rest are at my friendster..
so ya go n have a look.:)

After the celebration, meet adik n jln2.
grandparents are here FOR a week.
haiyo..

Art is halfway thru..
im gonna finish up tmr!!
i must..
but its too difficult coz sth bothering me..

its
its my

BED!!

hahas. kk
gtg. check out the pictures at my friendster.:)

Happy national day!!

ouhkiie today i had lots of laughter

n smiles in the morning.

Told ya friends are the one who will

brighten up my day.

.................
love diy

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Thursday, August 7, 2008

Title :
Time : 8:17:00 PM

Today its like a disaster?
Today had maths paper2 n combined sci.
ARGHHH
wat the hell!!
i forgotten

forgooootttteeenn to bring all the consent form!!
i knew i forgotten to bring sth!!
arhhh.. i told mdm wai n mdm hamidah,
their faces was like wat the hell..
they dun care.

their face was like blurr..
mcm saying to me my problem.

tooot kan..
ape lagi..
i did ah stupid thing ah..get the consent form
n forged signatures ah..!!
giler kan!

but i dunwan get scolded pe.. so ya..
did a VERY VERY VERY sssstttoooppppiiiiiiidddd thing..
Damn stupid.

did maths paper.
lost qns 5 of the paper!!
wth!!!
giler kan!! where the hell is tat paper???
argghh

After exam went for art.
haha art kene kacau rabak nye rabak.
i just go wif the flow..
coz i dunwan like fight back ke ape ah..
coz it will lead to me getting frustrated.
so like ive been told,
just go wif the flow:)

Fathin gonna hit u back on Sat..
with this*high* thingy..
let sing the HOME song..
coz it makes me sooo *high*
hahas..

everywhere i go terserempak ngan tat guy.
ohh wat the heck..

When home at 6.20pm.
had fun going home n kene kacau ngan dieorg..
was raining. haha i will ask my bestfriend fetch la fathin..
macam paham.
hahaha..
this people are : one of the 3Fs, fathin . Shorty Ain . "Heaven sent" Syaz . Boxer Haz.
they really make my day! n make me irritated!! hahas...

Raihan is sick.
hes got a fever.
grandparents are here for 1 week.
doing art nw!

i thought we r friends,

but y wont u tell me ur probs?

its okay.

hahas.

im fine wif it.

but i'll always b there wen u nid sme1:)

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Monday, August 4, 2008

Title :
Time : 9:12:00 PM

today. had practical science paper.
difficult ah.
tisha handphone kena surrender.
surrender alreadi cant get back.
nonsense kan!

i followed her home.
raining oi!!
must write letter to get hp back..
the mother nt home.
5 mins later her mum returned.
i shouted seh wen i feel this geli2 at my leg.
ahhh her cat!! i shouted.

den the cat wan to drink my drink.
haha seram seh. actualie im nt scared of cats but
the cat or i shld say cats climbed here n there.
i was scared they jump on me.
haha.

bestfriend da alik ah.stay at canteen while tisha
go take her hp.
eat lunch.
den stay in canteen until 12.50pm.
i cant go home! no one at home.
mum send bro to clinic.

after a while wen outside school.
boring oi!!
still cant go home.

at 1.50pm i went home ah.
knock2 the door, no one open!
call hse no one pick up!
haiyo.
call mum!
she still at clinic.
lame seh..
i waited alone.
1.56pm she still havent came home.

giler eh mcm kene denda tk leh masuk umah.
i wait under my void deck.
den gt sec 5s so wait under another void deck.
the sec 5s saw n ask me y am i here.
blah3..

den bestfriend msg.
i went to me him.
tok tok wif him. den ard 2 plus they all wan go home.
call mum cant get thru.! panic.
was send home by bestfriend :) thnks.
but no use la my mum havent came home! da 3.12pm!
still cant get thru her!! so waited at the staircase ah
bingit seh!

at 3.45pm she msg me she otw.
at last! haha
enter hse. eat den went to sleep for an hour.
but overslept until 6.30.

thnks friend.:)

wehhhoooo pass maths seh!!

im starting to love maths.

i hope i pass coz this will be the

only way to make me love maths:)

off to study.

love diy

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Sunday, August 3, 2008

Title :
Time : 3:55:00 PM

today wake up at 7.20am.
Went religious class.
today religious class was awesome,fun!!

During Arab lesson, the teacher came in.
den we ask,"ustazah bau ape tu?"
the uztazah panic.
she say from the smell was also from another class.
she told us she didnt use any perfume..
the smell was damn strong.haha..
continue wif lesson.

While learning Arab, she ask us to correct a few mistakes.
den at 9.50am wen recess.
Weird thing is tat have recess but canteen close.
nonsense kan.
we cabut keluar madrasah eli makan.
haha.
Shifah horrible seh mkn chocolate.
digusting. i shld have taken her photo of tat.!!
haha.

Den we up to class.
suppose to have another lesson.
the ustazah havent enter so we make noise larh.

Shifah n Fie draw2 on the board.
den this aisyah ask me wat subject i take.
i say art. den she laugh. u art student?
toot betul. haha
den shifah n Fie was F&N students.
they started to draw on the board.
they draw:
1. elephant looking at its ass!
2. big circle small circle become a pig!
3. 'm' car
4. flower become egg.
5. lastly the guys enter so we erase off.
haha.. nie la bdak2 F&N tk tau draw. ape2 they draw will turn out to look like foods.
hahas.
When the guys entered, we tok2 n disturb them.
they very quiet seh.
girls yg kecoh2.
den we disturb Rafidah wif Faris.

ustazah entered.
"bayar yuran cepat!!"
den faris wanted to pay his yuran so he stand up n walk towards ustazah.
Rafidah was like "psst psst, hello."
I tell Faris, "jgn pusing. die sengaje nk kacau kau! kuat kan iman jgn pusing!!"
hahahah but ape daa Faris pusing jgak.
IMAN TK KUAT AR! shifah said. hahah

den we keep on kacau2.
ustazah join in.
like match making lesson.
i laugh2 non stop seh. sampai menangis.
rafidah wif faris
shifah wif hafiz, but shifah wants hidayat.
Anisa wif rahsid.
hahaha..
hafiz n shifah gaduh when ustazah say tat.
haha gaduh2 syg.
hahas.
lastly abt to start bace doa.
Isa cough loudly.
Ustazah said" kenape isa? isa nk diyana ke?"
NOOOOOOOOO!!! PLS EH NO WAY!!
HAHAS.

den ustazah wanted to continue abt me n isa.
but i interrupt.
nonsense seh..
NO WAY!

hahas. tajwid lesson jady match making session.
bahhhh...

went home wif shifah, Fie, Anisa n Hafiz cos dad nt fetching me.
otw to bustop we laugh2 non stop.
best woii!
sampai menangis.
nxt week meet again ya. :)

Now its 4.30pm.
tmr sci practical!!
i dunno wat to study.
no mood to study.

mum tok abt her past.
kampong life ah seh.
sis asked her"toilet tk de roof eh?"
she say no.
den i ask ah"den klau tengok atas den saw GHOST?
hahahah
seram oiii.
she told ask abt the swan tat is actualie ...................
hahaha.. beware!
fun ah
her kampong gt 6 doors! belambak seh.
haha cool kan.
continue this tmr :)

its seems tat everything change.

we r nt like before.

why is tis so?

figure it out.

its all up to u.

wat can i do?

i jus hope we can be like usual. :)

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Friday, August 1, 2008

Title :
Time : 7:58:00 PM

today was maths and physics paper.
maths paper was kind of easy!
haha the funny thing is tat me n my best friend,
missing page 7 for maths paper i guess.
haha.
we both raised our hands. cikgu tk nampk plak. hahah
ape lagi like usual la they disturb me n him.
but its nt intentionally tat me n him get the wrong paper.
haha watever larh. :)

Phy paper was difficult ah seh.
its nt suppose to be difficult if i had studied.
i mean i did study but i studied more for maths rather than phy.

After school went home, den went to NAFA.
the artworks were very WOW!!
ard 3.45pm, we went out of the exhibition.
due to boredness.
So we took pictures!
thnks to syak the photographer! :)

reach school went to look for mrs zaki.
i cried. im emotional ah.
i jus felt so sad shes going.
i remember from sec 1 she was the form teacher of my class.
she contribute alot to us ah seh.

to mrs zaki,
i really appreciate everything u done for me.
you have always been a listening ear during my lower sec.
we were so close to u during sec 1 n 2.
this year, u tolerate all my nonsense.
as in lazy, making excuses and others wen it comes to doing coursework.
truthfully, without ur help i will nt have gotten this far.
sorry if i like asking u to do this n tat.
u shld be the one asking me to do this n tat but,
haha.
Sorry if i had made u so angry or frustrated.
really sorry..
I really appreciated everything u done for me.
i wish u do not have to go at this point of time.
but u have to. its ok.
we can manage? i hope so.
gd luck mrs zaki.. study hard! haha.
ure going to be a student again.
study hard! :)

love diy
we will miss u:)

wow! i seriously cried seh wen i see her.
she like going to leave mcm forever gitu.
haha. i have this feeling of guilty towards her.
come one ppl, we have been gossiping abt her behind her back.
it turns out shes really a great teacher!
And we were wrong abt her.
she made us do this n tat, and LOOK!
how far have we gone? we shld thnks her for bringing us this far!

end this thing abt mrs zaki.

nowadays i'm getting migrane.
n wen tat comes, i will get angry n irritated easily.
so sorie if i been harsh or mad or get angry easily.
i'm getting headache frequently.tats no excuse i noe.
so sorie. i try nt to get so f*** up easily and be patience.

know wat, i feel like giving up my responsiblity as a chairperson.
seriously ah. im getting stress each day.
this resulted in me having headaches.
how??
aru brape months taking up the responsiblity den nk resign.
crapss rite diy? u shld go until the end ler!!
this is part of sec 4 life! take the challenge.
overcome this obstacles diy!! hahha
motivate me ppl.

i have this feelings tat my friendship is fading away.
we r drawing apart!
i hope my besties wont leave me like tat.
especially tisha n fahmi. :)

iqah, be like u use to be.
someone hu is happy go lucky kind of girl.
make me laugh again iqah.
make my stress go away like u use to.
dun be emotional like me.

be strong. :)

i told u the truth.

n i hope u help me to build up my confidence.

i noe u can help me coz i trusted u so much.

u have brighten up my day.

continue doing it.

im sure i repay everything u done for me

08.08.08 ya.

remember . i going for a "date"hahas

date kepe?

im nt the kind of person hu go for date.

so i back out.

hahas. u r only one who knows the whole thing.

love, diy:)

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